Saturday, July 19, 2008
Things are getting confusing, they are getting complicated. God knows whats happening now. I just hope He will turn things around soon. Somehow i am glad that we fused. I am able to have complete control over myself now. I could think about it all the long but not hurt a single bit. I wonder if i am normal anymore. My inner self is just so dark. My heart is now frozen. It is numb, yet i realised that it cant stay like this forever. Once there is an impact strong enough, the ice would shatter and my heart would still break. I dont want to think about it anymore... The past, the times we had, i realised i didnt treasure you enough. Well, i guess this is my punishment, taunting dreams. Dreams which picture me patching up with you and the times we had, but when i wake up i realise its all a dream, i dont want them no more. How am i supposed to talk to you anymore. How is it possible that things could go back to normal? Why dont i just give up? I need a miracle.

I'm gonna leave house in like... 2 hours more or so, going to ton the night at pasir ris park. I cant wait. Haha. I think i need to get some sleep. At the rate i'm going, i would definetly need to go to bed by 3am latest if its on normal sats before i faint. I doubt i'm going for church tmr... I dont wanna faint there! Haha. I'll see how things go ba... Yup. Thats about it. Time to take my nap. Nights people.

Someday things will get better
Someday the miracle would come
Someday i would be healed of this feeling
Someday...

-KeneS|s- Out
Through the fire &
the flames we carry on


|Kenrick| 3:00 PM|

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