Sunday, September 28, 2008
Well, we all gotta get over our emoness and stuff. The whole gang was down with being emo just now. Skype was on by 12am but everyone was just inside, emoing. Jum and fiz broke up with their gf, and they are feeling really down. The moment jum said that he wanted to cry, my past all just came back to me. Not like they werent here all along, but yea they all came back in 1 shot. And i got hurt real bad. Sometimes it doesnt matter if its a gf or just a friend, its just how much you treasure the person. And i was just, sad. I was filled with regret. Pictures of you are just all around me. In my comp, msn, friendster, there's a group picture on my table. Its just so hard to let go. And i just went to cs with bots... It wasnt to train or anything. It was more of venting my anger on the bots. Killing bot after bot, it gave me the clarity to think, my mind wasnt all on you, and i felt much better. After 200 kills i came back and talked to them. I realised many things just by botting. Sometimes we all just have to have a clear mind of what we want. We may emo over things, but is that what we really want? You have been on my mind for at least 2 months now. And its about time these thoughts disappear. For those who are feeling kinda emo now, this post is for you.
In life we may face many difficulties. We may face breakups, broken friendships. These will all lead to us being really upset, in other term, emo. We will then start thinking of the times we had with the person, memories. We will start thinking of the people around the person. We will be filled with regret, pain, sometimes hate. We may do foolish things. And that person will be stuck in our head all day. We will just feel so low just because that person left us. That person must be someone special, someone we treasure. Well, honestly speaking, most of us will be stuck in that emo period for a very long time. I got stuck in it for months, weeks. But the right thing to do is to get up from where we fell. For non-religious people, you just got to believe that things will get better. Ask yourself, how much does the person mean to you. And ask yourself again, how much do you mean to that person. I know that despite saying all these, some people will just find it stupid, because its just a feeling. When we miss that person, when we love that person, we just feel sad. But if we make an effort to find happiness, there is much of it right around the corner. Personally, after losing my friend, i found my life darker than usual. Yet i was blinded, and i only realised much later i still had my 4 blood brothers. They were always there for me. They were the people who has stuck with me for so long. We just choose to believe that we have lost everything, despite having close ones right beside us. If you want happiness, you gotta search for it. Dont just stay at where you fell and hope that it would come back to you. Well, for religious people, christians, muslims, etc. We all believe in God. We all love God. Yet we are always going for other temptations. The feeling that we feel when we lose someone close, that sadness. Does it mean that the person you lost is more important than God? Is it true that you love that person more than God? Everything in this world happens for a reason. God makes everything happen for a reason. And all these heartbreaks, all these hardship, they are just tests set by God. If we get past this test, only then can we receive our "reward". If we were gonna just sit there and pray to God, hoping that He will change our fate, things will never change, as the saying goes "God won't help those who don't help themselves". And if that person was really meant to be yours, even if God takes that person away now, He will return that person in due time to come. If he doesnt, that just means that person wasnt fated to be with you in the first place. If so, why are you crying over it? Would hurting, emoing, crying over it change anything? Would God change things for you and return that person to you just because you are sad? Freewill, nothing will change! What we can do is just to pick ourselves up, and find real happiness in God. There is no longer a point in regretting. What has happened has happened. There is no longer a point in crying over spilt milk. Thats pretty much what i have to say. I hope this would be a wake up call for emos out there. This is a quote to end with. "Do not feel sorry for the past, instead feel happy that the past happened." Think hard about it and you will understand the true meaning. Cheer up people!
-Dedicated to : Hafiz and Jumali. Love you guys.
-Quotes : Jannatun. =)
-KeNeS|s- Out
|Kenrick| 3:15 AM|
