Monday, April 13, 2009
Lord please forgive for what i do,

For i know not what i've done

Every step i take seems to be a step further away from you. I can no longer feel you, i can no longer reach out to you. There are just some things that even i cant explain myself. Jan you asked me why it bothered me so much the other time, i wasnt too sure, but now i know why.

The feeling just isnt the same anymore. Its like, taking 2 good friends, turn one of them on the other, and try to put them back together. It takes time for wounds to heal, and its similar in this case, but not quite there yet. It just feels different. I'm really pissed off with not being able to express myself. Or maybe i shouldn't. People who hear me out, 2 out of 10 believes me. Yet out of these 2, there will not be one who understands me.

Somehow right now i just feel so distant, i feel lost spiritually, its like i've got nowhere to rest my soul, no inner peace. And i hate this feeling. This feeling of uncertainty, its just forcing me to choose a route in a crossroad. And i cant... Its a feeling i cant describe in words.

Is it over?

You critics wanna criticize but couldnt visualize individuals lives through a criminal's eyes


|Kenrick| 4:22 AM|

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