Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Mari ann . says:
look in the long ruuuuuuuuuuun
Have been thinking about that for quite a long time. No the thing i'm thinking of isnt related to what we were talking about at that time, the sentence just happened to make sense, thats why its there. I dont know, somehow, i feel like giving up already. Its only the 2nd day, but it already feels so terrible. I cant even think properly, i cant act properly, i just cant find a way to calm myself down like how i used to in the past. I'm feeling so much more restless than i used to be.
To put it simply, too many thoughts have been running through my mind. I know its too early to give up, but to be honest, by making the decision ive made 2 nights ago, i've broken my own rule. I was only supposed to quit if there was a reason to, but no, i cant find a reason for myself now. I cant explain why i've chose to quit. Maybe i did it for you, like how i did it to mend a friendship months ago. But when it all comes back to me, i know its meaningless, i know it will all come down to nothing at the end of the day. The only reason i'm holding on now is for a bro who've decided to quit on the same day as me. We made a promise to each other. And solely for that promise am i holding on. As much as i hope you break that promise before i do, so that we'll drop the idea of quitting, i do hope that you hold on as well, maybe then a miracle will happen and things will materialise.
The reply to mariann :
KeNeS|s // UnRealistiC DreaMz ; Sleeping says:
ill be too tired to finish the race
The urge just never goes away
It gets stronger by the day
When it all comes down to nothing
I know i cannot win
When the impossible comes to light,
The only way out is to fight
For a reason that even i cant explain
For my excruciating pain
Give me a hint, give me a sign
I know i'm losing this battle, i'm running out of time
If i ever see you down the streets again one day
I'll tell you that i'm okay
But deep down i wont be, no matter how much i pray
Should i just give up, or try to live up to these expectations-KeNeS|s- Out
|Kenrick| 1:07 AM|
