Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Away too long...

BCS test is finally over. Can't say it went really well, but i know it didnt go badly for me. Awesomeeee. At least studying did pay off. :) And i'm really tired now. Thanks to BCS once again. Micro lect tmr, and i have this super strong urge to pon! Cos i'm not doing anything after lect anyway, so just going there for 2hrs then coming back home, really waste of timeeee. Furthermore going out to meet kit chai tmr. Haiz, but promised weiwei le. So i'll drag my lazy self outta bed ba i guess. :(

Anyway, i figured that i was just providing excuses for myself. Telling myself over and over again that it isn't the right time to return to church, its just an excuse to cover up the backsliding that i've been having this year. Oh well, tbh, i'm not really planning to do anything about it. Met uncle KC on sat, did feel something when i was talking to him, but the feeling soon faded and i was back to my own world. And constant thinking about it has made me also realise that i've turned my back even during my most desperate times. I wonder what this will turn out to be in the future. Haiz, hopefully i'll snap outta it soon. :\

Alright, i guess i should get going right like about nao. If not i wont be able to wake up for micro even with 2 alarms like what happened for commskills before. Becos i set them both at the same time, so i'll be awake, but i'll turn them off and lie in bed, thinking that i'll get outta bed soon. But the next thing i know, i'm back in my dreamland. Hopefully that wont happen tmr! If not later somebody angryyyy uh! Haha! :)

The helpless feeling i felt months ago

-KeNeS|s- Out


|Kenrick| 12:58 AM|

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