Sunday, August 2, 2009
Does it even matter

I realised, that finding someone to understand and talk to is so damn hard. Life just sucks when you think about it. I'm always jealous at how others' have such a carefree and happy life, yet i'm just put down by mine all the time. Why do i have such a different fate from others?

I have enough of people trying to tell me to look at the brighter side of things, tell me to be positive. Cos there is nothing positive. Even if i wanted to work things out, i have to go through the shit that comes with it. Why isnt my life sold in a "happy life pack" where i have many friends, where i am close to my siblings, where i dont have problems with religion, where my appearance is just like the other cool kids out there, why do i have so many dilemmas in my life? Why was i made so different and inferior? I'll blame it on fate. Ah fuck it. Shan't continue complaining. Too high to anyway. Just gonna enjoy this time of the night, cos it doesnt come often.

I have grown to fear myself

-KeNeS|s- Out


|Kenrick| 3:43 AM|

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