Just as life felt almost perfect, this song reminded me of the big hole and the emptiness within me. It reminds me of my worries, in the day and deep into the night. It reminds me of my decision, and the constant haunting to take a step back and reconsider it. I fully understand that if it fails at the end of the day, I could lose the whole thing altogether. So its kinda huge a gamble to play. But at the very same time, I'm not at a legal age to gamble yet. And i still have to wait before I could play. This wait is however so long, so tiring and so exhausting. And to add oil to the fire, i figured that even despite the song metalingus, giving me the belief that i still have another chance to chase this dream, it is not up to me to decide if this dream would be fulfilled. Haiz.
Yeap, so that's probably a good example on how kids nowadays aren't satisfied with what they have and are always asking for more. They want everything in life to go well, with no emptiness in their lives, if not life sucks. Haha! Actually i'm kinda feeling a little weird here right now, for the sudden change of mood between the previous paragraph and this one... Just take it as the previous paragraph was what i was feeling lets say 3hours ago? And life's good now. So heee! Oh and and and, anyone noticed something? That i actually used a title this time? Haha! I don't really like it tho. Probably gonna change my skin soon, this one's wrecked up anyway, with its missing archives. And i'm sure everyone's bored of this old look. So, we'll find a day when i'm free then. No wait, that's tmr. Okay, we'll find a day when i have the mood to then. :x
Ahh and i realised today's probably one of the latest times that i've posted this week. Mainly cause its a friday and my parents are sleeping in, so i could do quiet time a little later. If not they'll be coming in and outta my room. How quiet is that time then man. Heh. Oh and i realised, next week's gonna be a super packed week. Lets see, i've got a moviedate with bert mariann and velda, AGAIN, yeah i know right. :x HAHA. Kidding if ya'll are reading this! Hmm then tues and wed's probably the poly overnighter for church i think? Not too sure. Ah and thurs till sat will be CYA training. Which would SUCKKK. Cos i hate trainings, i really do. Gah. Oh and mariann's leaving on the thurs to redang for 6 days? Like, lucky her man. Not cos she's going redang, cos she gets to skip training HAHA.
Okay anyway i think i better just shut off my comp and do quiet time right now. If not ya'll reading will probably die from me ranting about all the nonsense and rubbish that are taking up precious seconds of your life just like what you are reading right now because i am actually wasting precious seconds of my life trying to get you to waste precious seconds of your life, so you can continue reading or you could just turn off your monitor or close the window by clicking the small little x that you see on the top right hand of your window but if you have read till her then continue reading on because my hands are already too tired to type anymore so since you've already gotten here just finish the post ya? And too bad, you dont get a prize for reading so much, you only just wasted lets say approximately about maybe probably could be should be might be around 20secs of your life? Bad estimation by me if you took a shorter time cos i dont really care and i'm just doing it to waste your life by wasting more of mine. BYE.
